thank goodness i can have only one hysterectomy in my life.
i'm sure i've made this whole recovery experience more difficult because of my unrealistic expectations. for some reason, even though my oncologist told me 6-8 weeks, i didn't believe that it applied to me.
i cancelled this morning's acupuncture appointment. this made me sad, but i realized that it would be a big deal just to walk the three blocks to the subway station, much less actually get on the train and go into manhattan.
the good news is that there are small improvements in my recovery. for once, i won't go into graphic detail, but let's just say that the recovery seems to be moving forward, if at a snail's pace. and yay for naproxen! although the pain isn't completely gone, it is controlled and hopefully i will never have to visit the long list of possible side effects.
i've also become very efficient with movement. if i'm going to stand up and shuffle to the bathroom, you'd better believe that the trip will include grabbing the book i want to read, refilling my water glass, opening the curtains, putting on my favorite fuzzy jacket, and if i'm really ambitious, watering a plant or two. no sense in making them suffer just because i am.
sheesh. i sound bitter.
the truth is that even though i feel like an old lady who's been kicked in the stomach by a horse, there are many bright spots, if i just choose to see them. a care package from the vandewalles, a book on disc from deirdre, my mom's cooking last week and my sister visiting over the weekend, eggplant parmesan from skye, a musical card from hanna, beautiful homemade valentine wishes from tere and gabriel, an email from pat, and a phone call from joyce who was a stranger, but is now my friend. i get constant love and affection from ej. i also get comments on this blog and facebook from supportive friends and family (which i always read even if i never reply). and alfajores that transport me made by heidi and her tias.
gosh, when i start to pay attention, i realize i'm a very lucky girl. sorry, i've got a little something in my eye...